It's okay to be scared

It's okay to be scared

which is a good thing

because I am officially scared

I'm also faithful and trusting

but human so the tears almost fell

then I saw this

popping out from under our non blooming azaleas

I just finished paying all of our bills for the month of April

downgrading our services with some of our service providers

and still have to finish our federal and property taxes...but I don't have to do that today so i'm taking a breath

It's a lot to handle

this one income family thing

I'm not scared but I am

I'm constantly praying and my constant prayer has been strength and trust

in fact, that's the mantra I fell asleep to the night before my hub lost his job

I thought it was in reference to the dog drama

turns out it's probably for something more

I do trust...and I guess we're feeling pretty strong

and you know...it is a blessing to have been able to pay for everything and have left over

definitely could have been worse

it's not worth fretting about future financial burden (taxes, dog, etc) since we truly only have today and today is good

so today, my Spirit is bigger than my flesh but my flesh sure is trying...

He is my strength and my salvation whom have I to fear?

And in His secret place I'll hide and pray that I might hear a simple word.

Oh how I would have despaired if You had not come found me there

I can lean against Your throne and find my peace

Find my peace.

And when my enemies draw near I pray that they might find

that I'm protected and secure all tempers He will bind 

with a mighty Word

Oh how I would have despaired if You had not come found me there

I can lean against Your throne and find my peace

I can lean against Your throne and find

Lean against Your throne and find

Lean against Your throne and find my peace

~lyrics by Jennifer Knapp